Mary. Martha. Me.

What would it look like if we lived a day still? What if we pushed back on the need to always be doing and pushed forward on the need to rest at Jesus’ feet? What if for a day, we didn’t do anything other than be still and know God is God?

There isn’t time we say. And there isn’t time because our lists are so long and the Godhead always seems to come in last. And by we, I mean me. And by our lists, I mean mine.

Luke 10:38-42 (ESV)
“Now as they went on their way, Jesus entered a village. And a woman named Martha welcomed him into her house. And she had a sister called Mary, who sat at the Lord’s feet and listened to his teaching. But Martha was distracted with much serving. And she went up to him and said, “Lord, do you not care that my sister has left me to serve alone? Tell her then to help me.” But the Lord answered her, “Martha, Martha, you are anxious and troubled about many things, but one thing is necessary. Mary has chosen the good portion, which will not be taken away from her.”

One of the challenges with full time ministry is the reality that lists never seem to get fully done. And because lists never seem to get fully done, it becomes easy to live ministry as if it were a check list. Much like Martha, you (I) know what needs to get done. You (I) know how important the Lord is, but there just doesn’t seem to be enough time to prepare everything we think needs to be prepared AND fully rest in His presence.

And what makes all of this the most frustrating, is the knowledge that the Lord calls us to be still even in the midst of a busy life. And we (I) know it’s possible. Even Jesus managed to have time to be still before God. He knew when to set aside His list and just be still. How? I do not know, but this I do: we as a people are called to do as Jesus did.

I spoke on joy this past Sunday but found I needed to be coached in that. In joy I mean because it wasn’t a joyful week. So I pulled away from all of what we would call busy, and handed over my need to be in charge. You see, I had to create time for the Lord so He could fill me with joy in the stillness of Him. Because the restlessness of myself is not going to produce joy. Only God can do that.

And while, like Mary, I sat at the feet of Jesus and caught a glimpse of the God who found me when I kid. And I began to grieve because I hadn’t realized how much I missed knowing Him like I did then. Because back then, God was my focus and the only consistent thing in my life. Of course, His consistency hasn’t changed. But mine has. And I grieve because I know God holds all I want and all I need. So why wouldn’t we (I) want to set down our lists and sit down before the One who knows us deep?

Life is such a grand adventure but it is of little worth if our focus isn’t on the One who formed us. So how do we shift our focus? How do we live still? I still don’t have the answer because I’m still learning. But I do know sometimes we have to uproot our own agendas to be rooted in the God whose mission is to love us.

 

 

Live full. Love well. Laugh much.

-Patricia

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